Consensus

Jul 29

So I haven’t been feeling too lovely for the last couple of the days because of this stupid charade that’s going on with my sister and I. :closed: Also for the fact that I wasn’t able to talk to my boyfriend and tell him how I felt about things because in his opinion I was supposed to ignore everyone and just be happy. I ended up working things out with him last night and finally told him how I felt because I just couldn’t do that whole faking being happy shit. =| So he apologized for making it seem like all he did was agree with the people that hurt me, and he finally saw where I was coming from. :dead: I also came to a consensus on my own that, I really don’t want to hang out with my sister again even when I am 21 and legal everywhere, because by the time I get to that age, she’ll be 29/30 and in my eyes she’ll be old… so who really wants to hang out with old people when you’re in your early 20′s? :devil: Saying that made me feel better… I really hope Karma is a bitch this time around and she really feels what she is putting me through right now. I can’t stand it and I hate that it’s happening but you know what, it’s happening and I just need to stop sulking over it and forget her. I barely see her at home, and when she is home she doesn’t talk to me, and if she does talk to me it’s just cause she wants me to do something. So whatever, two can play your fucking childish games. :devil: But I feel like I lost my sister. *sighs*

I realized my mom has some major issues with my growing up, with the fact that I have to call her before I leave the house if I am going out, and if I call her after I got there, she starts to flip out. Listen lady, at least I flipping called at all. Come on now. I don’t know what everyone’s issue is with me growing up, but seriously they need to suck it up because yeah I may be the youngest in the family on my mother’s side but fuck, I am not getting any younger. I just don’t understand what is going on in this house. All I know is I just can’t take all of this shit anymore. :dead:

I really need to start creating and coding themes for this place. I will be leaving in two weeks for England for two weeks, so I won’t be updating. But I will more than likely blog the day before I leave, or on the day before we leave. I made one theme but I have to code it and stuff still in which I am being lazy to do. =| Maybe I’ll do that tomorrow. I have another theme idea, so hopefully that’ll work out. Anyways I am off to go and try to find something productive to do. Thank you guys so much for your support and help throughout all of this. I greatly appreciate it. :heart:

Filed in: Family, Life, Rant, Site/Online

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